A family that prays together.....

I am so fortunate to have a very well-knit family. Kahit hindi kami mayaman, I value the norms that my parents instill to us and the value of respect to other people.

My father, being the most influential man in the family who worked in a government agency, attended to our needs at all times. Kahit kapos kami sa pera, he see to it na lahat ng pangangailangan namin ay kanyang binibigay. There were times na walang-wala talaga kami. At night, I always checked my father’s wallet and pocket lalo na bago matulog, then I couldn’t sleep if its empty, kasi wala kaming pambaon kinabukasan sa school…but then, maaga siyang nagigising para gumawa ng paraan para sa baon namin.

Sa pagdating niya galing sa trabaho, I always waited at the gate of our house. Pag may narinig na akong tunog ng motorsiklo, sasalubungin ko siya para umangkas sabay tanong kung may pasalubong siya. Masaya ako everytime na may nakasabit na plastik sa likod ng kanyang motorcycle. At night, kung nasa labas pa kami ng bahay at nakikipaglaro, siya ang susundo sa amin at bago kami matulog, siya pa ang naglalagay ng mosquito net sa apat na sulok ng kuwarto namin.

He taught us to be respectful to all. Kahit medyo may pagka-nagger ang mother namin kung minsan, ayaw na ayaw niya na sumasagot kami. All through the years, wala akong nakitang matinding away nilang mag-asawa. Nag-sasagutan sila, pero my father mellowed down palagi. Siya ang nagpaparaya sa kanila. Kaya alam ko na mahal niya kaming lahat, lalong-lalo na ang mother namin.

Isang huwarang ama, mabait, tahimik at mapagmahal. Hindi ko siya makitang magalit o makipag-away man lang. For him, everything must be done in harmony.

When I was 3 years old, nagkaroon ng engkwentro ang mga military at NPA mismo sa tapat ng bahay naming. Although bata pa ako, I’d seen how my parents protect us from stray bullets hitting our house. Sumisigaw ang mother ko habang nakadapa kami with my father covering us all. It was a nightmare, pero my father was so brave enough at sa awa ng Diyos, walang nasaktan sa amin.

Every Sunday, kailangan sama-sama kami sa church.

Never siyang nagkaroon ng affairs with other. For him, sapat na kami para maging masaya siya palagi.

Kahit nakaranas kami ng hirap, hindi ko nakitaan ng paghihina ng loob. Pag weekend, mas hilig niya na nasa bahay at inaasikaso ang aming lupain at pag-aalaga ng hayop. Madalas akong magpaalam sa kanya para mamasyal, pero minsan lang niya akong pinapayagan. Kahit naiinggit ako sa mga kaibigan ko, hindi ako nagtanim ng sama ng loob sa kanya. Kahit malapit at paborito niya ang kaisa-isa naming kapatid na babae, andoon pa rin ako para unawain siya.. Mahal ko kasi silang lahat lalong lalo na si Papa Kahit nahihirapan ako at minsan di maiwasang mainggit, natitiis ko dahil Papa ko siya..

Sa bawat medalyang natatanggap ko taon –taon mula sa elementarya hanggang high school, nakita ko ang tuwa niya pag sinasabit sa dingding namin. Actually paramihan kami ng sister ko sa medalyang naisasabit. Pag nakikita daw niya ang mga iyon na nakasabit sa dingding, nawawala ang pagod niya.

When I reached college, dahil na rin sa gusto kong tumulong sa family ko, I planned to work during my free hours sa school library, bagay na tinutulan ng father ko. “Habang kaya ko, hindi ko kayo papayagang mag trabaho habang nag-aaral”. Ang paliwanag niya sa akin.

He supported us until the four of us got our own college degrees without seeing any disappointment to him at all. Dahil sa sipag at pagmamahal niya sa amin, lumaki kaming may respeto sa lahat at may mabuting asal.

Pero despite sa lahat ng nangyari at sa haba ng panahon naming magkakasama, bihira kong sabihin sa kanya na mahal ko siya.. Sabi ng mother ko, lahat daw kaming magkakapatid ay salitang “papa” ang una naming sinabi. Lumaki kaming magkakapatid na mas matimbang ang pagpapakita ng pagmamahal sa pamamagitan ng gawa, hindi sa salita. At madalas nahihirapan kaming sumangguni sa aming butihing ama kung may problema kaming magkakapatid, dahil lahat kami ay ayaw naming bigyan siya ng problema at mag alala sa amin. At dahil sa kabaitan niya, gusto naming suklian lahat iyon ng pawang magagandang ala-ala at mga bagay na ikaliligaya niya.

Hanggang sa paglipas ng panahon, kaming lahat ay may kanya-kanya ng sariling buhay at dahil sa kanyang pagiging mabuting ama sa amin, lumisan siya ng tuluyan na masaya at isang ganap na ulirang ama para sa amin, sa kanyang pamilya. Alam ko, masaya siyang humarap sa dakilang lumikha dahil magampanan niya ang misyon niya dito sa mundo…

Subalit, kahit hindi ko nasabi sa kanya ng madalas na mahal na mahal ko siya, alam kong nararamdaman niya iyon sa bawat minuto na kasama ko siya at sa bawat saglit na wala akong ibang iniisip kung hindi ang makita at makapiling lagi siya…

Sayang nga lang na sa huling sandali ng kanyang buhay ay wala ako sa tabi niya… Isang pagsisisi na hindi ko kanya nabanggit ang salitang “Mahal Kita” bago siya pumanaw.

Pero sa puso ko hanggang ngayon, alam niya na mahal na mahal ko siya….

Saan ka man naroroon, Happy Father’s Day Papa and I Love You…..

Fathers..Then and Now

Fathers Then and Now

Fathers of 1900 didn't have it nearly as good as fathers of today; but they did have a few advantages:

In 1900, a father's horsepower meant his horses.
Today, it's the size of his minivan.

In 1900, if a father put a roof over his family's head, he was a success.
Today, it takes a roof, deck, pool, and 4-car garage. And that's just the vacation home.

In 1900, a father waited for the doctor to tell him when the baby arrived.
Today, a father must wear a smock, know how to breathe, and make sure film is in the video camera.

In 1900, fathers could count on children to join the family business.
Today, fathers pray their kids will soon come home from college long enough to teach them how to work the computer and set the VCR.

In 1900, a father smoked a pipe.
If he tries that today, he gets sent outside after a lecture on lip cancer.

In 1900, fathers shook their children gently and whispered, "Wake up, it's time for school."
Today, kids shake their fathers violently at 4 a.m., shouting: "Wake up, it's time for hockey practice."

In 1900, a father came home from work to find his wife and children at the supper table.
Today, a father comes home to a note: "Jimmy's at baseball, Cindy's at gymnastics, I'm at adult-Ed, Pizza in fridge."

In 1900, fathers and sons would have heart-to-heart conversations while fishing in a stream.
Today, fathers pluck the headphones off their sons' ears and shout, "WHEN YOU HAVE A MINUTE.."

In 1900, a father gave a pencil box for Christmas, and the kid was all smiles.
Today, a father spends $800 at Toys 'R' Us, and the kid screams: "I wanted Sega!"

In 1900, a Father's Day gift would be a hand tool.
Today, he'll get a digital organizer.

In 1900, a happy meal was when Father shared funny stories around the table.
Today, a happy meal is what Dad buys at McDonald's.

In 1900, a father was involved if he spanked the kid now and then.
Today, a father's involved only if he coaches Little League and organizes Boy Scouts and car pools.

In 1900, when fathers entered the room, children often rose to attention.
Today, kids glance up and grunt, "Dad, you're invading my space."

My Guardian Angel.. ROCHEL

Guardians are the Angels that are assigned to a particular human being. Our own Personal Guardian Angel! They join us at birth and helps move over into the other world when we part the earthly plane. They defend us when we’re in trouble, guide us in the right direction according to our life plan, give us small insights into how things are, and inspire us to live better lives. Our Guardian Angels are constantly in touch with any and all of the angels. They pass messages along to the relevant parties, if we ask for help from our Guardian Angel, they assist us, and call on other angels too for help.




Although the Church has never defined that every individual soul has a guardian angel, I am sure between me and God is a guardian angel who has a mission to fulfill for me at all times.

Angels do not only act as the executors of God’s wrath against the ‘cities of the plain’, it is clearly stated in the Old Testament that angels are God’s ministries who carried out his behest and who were at times given special commissions regarding men and mundane affairs.




My angel’s name is Rochel (the fifth angel of the Angels) …

He governs fame, fortune and inheritance. He rules over magistrates and lawyers. Rochel also brings the light to find what we have lost, or what was stolen, and to discover the thieves.

As my guardian angel, he enlightens my mind so that I may find what I have lost, that’s why I get rid of the burden of the past, and reconsider what is available at present . Rochel gives me strength to stop playing different roles in order to find my true self. I discover that I have strength and talents which I didn’t even suspect when I was a kid.

Rochel wants me to discover qualities that will lead me to success and personal harmony and he wants me to use it to help others without bragging anything.

Rochel always reminds me to be creative and productive. Although I cannot control my being so sensitive sometimes, he helps me to be imaginative, yet pragmatic, loyal and dependable, just like what he does to Mikhail Gorbachev, Alexander Graham Bell, Rex Harrisson and Jean Harlow.

Moreno...Kayong Dalawa Na, Bubuksan Pa Ba sa Iba?

Mula po sa Grupong Sinehan, isang produksyong Sinehan Digitales, obra ni Crisaldo Pablo (writer-producer- director) na advocate ng queer cinema sa Pilipinas, ang isa na namang indie digital movie na tumatalakay sa relasyon ng bisexual sa bisexual, "Kayong dalawa na, bubuksan pa ba sa iba?".




Mga eksenang kinunan pa sa malayong probinsya sa Mindanao kasama ang mga katutubo sa isang remote village malapit sa General Santos City, nais buksan ng movie ang diskusyon sa nakasanayan ng Macho Pinoy na magkaroon ng multiple lovers or partners. Bahagi ito at legal sa ilang mga tribo, sa relasyong bakla man kung saan parehong biological na lalaki ang magpartner, lalo na pag Pinoy din, mas matindi daw ang tendency na magkaroon din ng multiple partner kahit committed na.
Gaano kalawak nga ba ang pang-unawa ng isang nagmamahal? Handa ka bang i-share ang lover mo? Sa movie na ito ay walang hinahatulan ang direktor, nagpapakita lang siya ng isang common na karanasan ng isang bakla. Ang katunayan, laging sa totoong buhay humuhugot ng kuwento si Direk Crisaldo, dahil sa totoong buhay walang simula at wakas, walang tama at mali, walang totoong kumbensyon.
Ang Moreno ay nagtatampok kina Ynez Veneracion, Ray-an Dulay, Mark Dionisio, ipinakikilala si JV Roxas.



Buod

Sa movie na Moreno, ang karakter na si Cris ay nagpunta sa isang remote village sa Mindanao para magdokumento ng kalagayan ng mga kababaihang members ng isang tribe doon. ang director ng ngo na si Mawen, kaibigan ni Cris, ay tumutulong to educate and empower the women of that indigenous tribe para they can cope with poverty. kasi sa community nila kung saan ang mga lalaki ay allowed legally to have several wives, para sa second, third and fourth wife ay medyo aping-api ang kanilang kalagayan... Mawen wants Cris, through his documentary, to be able to show how the community still needs help, specially the women, the young barely schooled women...
Ang kaso, si Cris may emotional and psychological baggage from a failed queer relationship in manila. Habang hinaharap niya ang sufferings ng mga babae, nasasalamin din niya kung paanong ang promiscuity ng partner niya at ang paniniwala nito na dapat legal ang marami kang partners maliban pa sa committed relationship mo (sa mga queers po) ay nagdala din ng pahirap sa kaniya...
Dahil nasasalami ni Cris ang paghihirap na ito ay nakialam sya sa ilang case studies niya and it led to a tragic ending...

The Better Side of the Philippines

The following was written by INTEL General Manager Robin Martin about the
Philippines:

Filipinos (including the press, business people and myself) tend to dwell too much on the negative side, and this affects the perception of foreigners, even the ones who have lived here for a while. The negative perception of the Philippines is way disproportionate to reality when compared to countries like Columbia, Egypt, Middle East, Africa, etc.

Let us all help our country by balancing the negative with the positive especially when we talk to foreigners, whether based here or abroad.

Looking back and comparing the Philippines today and 1995 (the year I came back), I was struck by how much our country has progressed physically.

Consider the following:

1. The great telecom infrastructure that we have now did not exist in 1995. 1995 was the year the telecom industry was deregulated. Since then billions of dollars have been invested in both fixed line and cellular networks producing a system with over 5,000 kms of fiber optic backbone at a world competitive cost. From a fixed line capacity of about 900,000 in 1995 we now have over 7 million. Cellular phones practically did not exist in 1995; now we have over 11 million line capacity.

2. The MRT, many of the EDSA flyovers (including the Ayala Avenue flyover), the SKYWAY, Rockwell and Glorietta 4, the Fort, NAIA terminal 2 and most of the new skyscrapers were not yet built in 1995.

3. If you drive to the provinces, you will notice that national roads are now of good quality (international quality asphalt roads). I just went to Iba, Zambales last week and I was impressed that even a not so frequently traveled road was of very good quality.

4. Philippine exports have increased by 600% over the past eight years. There are many, many more examples of progress over the last eight years. Philippine mangoes are now exported to the US and Europe.

Additional tidbits to make our people prouder:

1. INTEL has been in the Philippines for 28 years. The Philippines plant is where Intel's most advanced products are launched, including the Pentium IV. By the end of 2002, Philippine operations became Intel's biggest assembly and testing operations worldwide.

2. TEXAS INSTRUMENTS has been operating in Baguio for over 20 years. The
Baguio plant is the largest producer of DSP chips in the world. DSP chips are the brains behind cellphones. TI's Baguio plant produces the chip that powers 100% of all NOKIA cellphones and 80% of Erickson cellphones in the world.

3. TOSHIBA laptops are produced in Santa Rosa, Laguna.

4. If you drive a BENZ, BMW, or a VOLVO, there is a good chance that the
ABS system in your car was made in the Philippines.

5. TREND-MICRO, makers of one of the top anti virus software PC-Cillin (I may have mispelled this) develops its "cures" for viruses' right here in Eastwood Libis, Quezon City. When a virus breaks in any computer system in the world, they try to find a solution within 45 minutes of finding the virus.

6. Today a majority of the top ten U.S. Call Center firms in the U.S. have set up operations in the Philippines. This is one area in which I believe we are the best in the world in terms of value for money.

7. America Online (AOL) has 1,000 people in Clark answering 90% of AOL's global e-mail inquiries.

8. PROCTOR & GAMBLE has over 400 people right here in Makati (average age
23 years) doing back-up office work to their Asian operations including finance, accounting, Human Resources and payments processing.

9. Among many other things it does for its regional operations network in the Asia-Pacific region here in Manila, CITIBANK also does its global ATM programming locally.

10. This is the first year ever that the Philippines will be exporting cars in quantity courtesy of FORD Philippines. (I have an idea this article was written between 2001 - 2002, so this operation should have been on-going for the last 3 years or so. CYN)

11. The government is shedding off graft and corruption slowly but surely. This is the first time in our history that a former president is in jail and facing charges of plunder. Despite all odds, we are still pursuing the ill-gotten wealth of Marcos now enjoyed by his unrepentant heirs.

Next time you travel abroad and meet business associates tell them the good news. A big part of our problem is perception and one of the biggest battles can be won simply by believing and by making others believe.

This message is shared by good citizens of the Philippines who persevere to hope and work for our country.

The "Embassy" Show

The Independence Day celebration in Riyadh last Friday was the most less-attended celebration I ever attended. If I have foreseen that it would be boring and time-consuming, maybe I could have shifted to my other priorities of the day.

Since the new ambassador assumed his post early this year, there are many community-serviced organizations who were disappointed with the restrictions that the new embassy administration imposed.

Dati, halos mapuno ang Liwasan ng mga tao linggo-linggo para manood ng shows, tournaments, atbp., Pero dahil sa mga restrictions, nawalan tuloy ng paglilibangan ang mga OFWs sa Riyadh.

The embassy is the only place where Filipinos in Riyadh could feel that they are not bored, homesick and alone. It could also be the place where men and women can talk and have fun freely.

If an organization will stage a quality entertainment show, kailangan nila ng mahigit 20,000 SR (240,000 pesos) para sa gastusin sa sound system, stage, costumes, embassy charges ( yes, nag charge sila for janitorial, electricity, etc.).

So with that big amount, of course kailangan ng isang non-profit organization na gumawa ng paraan to raise funds. Unlike sa Pilipinas, most establishments/companies in Saudi Arabia do not give financial support when they are being asked to sponsor shows. They can only give free products. Likewise, selling of tickets is now prohibited by the Ministry, kaya nahinto yong bentahan ng admission tickets sa loob ng Embassy Ground.

It was during the time of Ambassador Rafael Seguis, now DFA USEC, that the Filipino community in Riyadh started to enjoy their stay in the Kingdom because he made it sure that the Filipinos will have some recreations and gatherings at the Embassy always. And that made him a well-loved ambassador. He opens the embassy to Filipinos. Dahil para sa kanya, ang embassy ay para sa mga Filipino. This kind gesture of a Filipino public servant continued up to the administration of Ambassador Bahnarim Guinomla, albeit the complains received from nearby Embassies about the too much crowd and noise. The two ambassadors had won the support of OFWs.

Lately, we have experienced some misbehavior of Embassy officials and staff. Kung may mga tiwaling government employees sa atin, meron din sa Riyadh.

We have experienced sarcastic treatment from the Building Administrator, Guard and other low-ranking employees. Para bang sila ang may patakbo ng embahada.

I remember one lady employee who hates Filipino coming to Embassy na hindi siya pinapansin at hindi siya tinatawag na Ma’am. Kailagan aw ganoon palagi ang address sa kanila because they are working at the Embassy.

I just hope somebody will be brave enough to complain this matter to higher authority.

Going back doon sa show last night, although napagtiyagan naman, we cannot control ourselves to mock those performers na talagang aliw na aliw kami. Lalo na yong opening nila na halos nag mukhang show ng Bellestar dancers.. There were more technical problems, lalo na sa microphones.

We were impressed by the new talents of RAGI, pero mukhang nakakasawa na rin yong mga dati nilang members.

The show started late and since it was Friday, marami ang umuwing maaga dahil sa work kinabukasan.

As usual, Cyndy dela Cruz stood out during the first part of the program with her rendition of Dakilang Lahi. Cyndy is now a member of Asosasyon ng mga Pilipinong Mang-aawit (APM).

'Dakilang Lahi' - Cyndy dela Cruz

So what???.....

Kagabi open ko yong original friendster account ko…yong with limited access….

Actually pag flooded ang message box ko from other ka-friendsters whom I am not familiar with, eh hindi ko pinansin…

For the past few days, I received a message from HM of Pampanga..


May 14 – HM: musta pO work nyu dyan?naka2sama nyu ppuba c EM dyan?ilang years na kau dyan?

May 25 – Me: ok naman kami d2.. mga 8 years na me... dabarkads ko si EM . bat kilala mo siya??

May 25 - HM: ah.ganon bs?asawa nya 2.work po kc me sa computer tga tym.ang hirap ng buhay sa ngayon drama pa me ..hehehe.grinab ko nga picture nya he.cge po ingat.tnx.

I called up EM asking him if he knows HM. He never denied na may anak siya kay HM, but they are not married… In other words, nagka anak lang niya…

Ok…

Pero yon pala tumawag siya kay HM after we talked tapos tinanong about her message to me…

All of a sudden naka receive ulit ako ng message from her….

May 29: HM: ay,nku anu ung cnabi m kay EM?ok,qung ayaw m kung maging friend?bt kaylangan mpang sbhin kay EM?xiempre,gus2 q lang makila2 ung mga friend nya?kya gus2 ktang iadd sa mga list ng friendster q,uuwi na lang sya nmagaway pa kami.its dat a big deal?di na man aqo naki2pag flirt ah?qng ayaw nyo fine?di maintindihan 2luy ni EM kla nya qng anu ung sinend q sau.cge,tnx.....ang dami qng friends,kht d q kilala di cla magre2act?ng ganyan....k.fine

Ha.ha.ha.ha.ha..affected ata ng tawag ni EM, kaya ganon na lang ang response niya….

Kaya dead ma lang ako….

Then I post a comment sa friendster ni EM….. nakita pala ni H at ito ang message niya ulit sa akin….

June 9: HM: gandahan mo naman binibigay mong comment sa hubby q!!!r u a gay?

Yon na!! ha.ha.ha.ha..

Remembering Centennial Independence Day

I still remember the last independence day celebration I spent in the Philippines. Yon yong Centennial celebration (1998).

Gosh… ang tagal na pala…

To avoid experiencing the influx of celebrants to Manila, we decided to travel to Baguio with few friends..

Joshua, JV and Anthony – (considered as our “alagas”) and Glen.

Joshua, who is Glen’s favorite, hails from Pangasinan taking up Nursing sa University Belt. Pero dahil sa kapos sa pera, pumasok siyang GRO sa club…

Bata pa si JV and Anthony (15 and 16), pero sinubukang maging GRO din sa club...

Naglayas si JV sa kanila at nabarkada si Anthony.. Naging boytoy ko…

Anthony is from Antipolo.. pedyo may pagka bi kung kumilos at magsalita.. pero at his age, grabe ang kargada ng batang ito!



We stayed in Supreme Hotel, at habang may celebration sa Luneta, we invade Baguio.

We rented taxi for the whole day.. We went to PMA, Chinese Temple, a cave ( I forgot the name), and last stop is Burnham’s Park, where we enjoyed horseback riding.

We enjoyed our overnight stay sa Baguio dahil na rin sa dami ng tao.

"Happy Birthday" means much more....

Dearest,

On your day just want to say
That you can count on me
To be with you until the end:
Just wait and you will see!

You're the strand on which I silent write
Before my dreams are swept far out to sea.
In you there's room to canter and run free,
Restoring my lost sense of space and light.
To me you are a place where I can stay,
Hanging out to watch the rush of time,
Drawing in the sand a lazy line
Along which I can go my own sweet way.

I wish for you, a happy day
For lots of love, to come your way
May your heart be filled with cheer
That will last, thorugh the coming year

Best wishes from my heart, sent your way
Hoping that much joy, be yours today
This special prayer for you, I will say
"God bless you" on your very special day.


"Happy Birthday" means much more
Than have a happy day.

Within these words lie lots of things
I never get to say.

It means you mean a lot to me,
And that I'm proud of you.

Terms of Un-Endearment

Its more than a month that the Ruffayah-Ylmas has been the core of showbiz intrigues and selling like hot cakes after the Kris-James-Hope brouhaha.

As a matter of fact, Kris Aquino thanked Ruffa for making her life in serenity because people savor more Ruffa’s marriage on the rock than Kris-James marital problem.

As the news escalate from Ruffa’s confession to divorce Ylmas to her admission of unpublished marriage to Richard Daloia, there were many people meddling and make feast of every exclusive news… more scoops and explosive revelations unveiled publicly.

Now, its not only the Gutierrez family involved, but its Ruffa-Annabel-Ylmas-Dolly Ann. Branded as Brutus-Bruhilda war.

Recently, Ylmas declared all-out-war with Ruffa saying that he is ready to play games with Ruffa where in the end, both of them will be losers.

Ruffa answers Ylmas point-by-point and revealed the real agony she experienced during their 7 year old relation.

Dolly Ann feels vindicated about the truth of her articles about Ruffa’s previous marriage and Ylmas family business. She exposed Ruffa’s previous marriage to Richard Daloia in Nevada in 2001.

But then the saga doesn’t stop. One accusing each other. Garbage in the closets are out.. Ano ba kayang baho ang ilalabas???? Abangan natin ang No 1 soap operang ito…..

Here are some comments from readers:

i believe ruffa that yilmaz made all those threats. sino ba ang hindi magwawala upon discovering that ang wife mo pala ay asawa ng iba at ikaw ay kabit lang? this, after you have showered all sorts of luxuries on your wife, as in you gave her everything she wanted. whether yilmaz is intent on following through or not, remains to be seen. but i repeat, any guy in yilmaz's position regardless of nationality, religious affiliation, or country of origin would fly into such a rage. – Liwayway

ikinasal si ruffa kay richard daloia in 1999, she met ylmaz in 2000..she filed for a divorce against richard in 2002.. ruffa & ylmaz gor married in 2004.. ang bilis naman ng pangyayari.. she said that when she was young.. she did a lot of crazy things like getting married in las vegas and eventually having discreet relationship(s) while still legally married.. what about now? do u think karma has something to do with all the troubles she's goin through?? – Tiya Dely

From the very beginning sa salita ni Tita Anabelle obvious na sinasaktan nya talaga si Ruffa, panoorin nyo yung interview lahat kay Anabelle, syempre bilang isang ina maawa ka sa anak kapag sinasaktan ng lalaki. I believe with Annabelle and I believe with Ruffa na talagang pinagtatakpan nya lang ang asawa nya para di na lumala alang alang sa mga anak nya, kaso etong si Yilmaz talagang ayaw patalo kasi sa isip nya kayang kaya nyang gawin kahit anong gusto nya. Kaya tama lang ang ginawa ni Ruffa na hiniwalayan nya si Yilmaz. – Ivy Ivan


i know it's a shame to find sheer pleasure and amusement with all thats happening with the people in the show biz industry, particularly Greta and Ruffa. its not nice at all too to make a complete mockery out their condition and add insult to the injury but on second thought i find it rather completely entertaining how these 2 women really live their pagiging "show biz" literally. todo na eh.
im not a big fan of Ruffa nor Gretta nor am i interested in bashing at their crooked peronalities. i leave it to the other pepters! pero naloka ako sa interview ng lola Ruffa niyo. i know this issue about Ruffa and Ylmaz will linger on for quite a while and overly redundant na pero sa dami ng chance niyo to speak the truth mantakin niyong ngayon pa siya kuno nagkalakas ng loob to tell the truth, at least sa akala niya. eh susme di nga alam ng mudra niyang si Annabelle na kinasal siya. ang dami niyang pasabog bigla na negative kay Ylmaz. typical na pangontra pero sayang, damaged na ang credibility ng lola niyo. – west tri

umpisa pa lang ng pagsasama nila bago naganap ang pekeng kasalan sa Pinas ay sinasaktan na siya, bakit nakisama pa rin siya ng 4 taon kay yilmaz...dahil ba sa PERA??? at noon pa man ay nakakaalis siya ng istanbul bakit bumabalik pa rin siya doon dahil ba rin sa PERA? ngayon di na talaga siya babalik at naglakas loob ng siyang aminin na battered wife siya...bakit??? dahil nabuking na siya'y kasal kay richard d. at talagang mabububog na nga siya..takbo ruffa takbo....hayan na ang kasong bigamy sa iyo!!! – pinay cali

Filipino consider showbiz news as part of their daily lives.. Siguro, nakasanayan na natin ang sumagap ng tsismis at gawin itong almusal, pananghalian at hapunan… we are critics of other’s failures and weaknesses, pero ang hindi natin alam may mga similar instances din tayo gaya ng nangyayari sa iba.. Sabi nga sa bible. “He who have no sin, can cast the first stone”…

Ewan ko, basta bahala sila sa buhay nila, bahala din ako…..To Each his own....

Somewhere Down the Road....

“Eight members of a Saudi family were killed when their car was crushed by a speeding truck in the southwest of the kingdom..”

“An Oriya worker has been killed in a road accident in Saudi Arabia, one of his family members said here Wednesday. ...”

“ Filipino couple died in road mishaps..”

2,536 Road Accidents…. 256 died in just 5 months…….

These are the actual figures on the vehicular mishaps in Saudi Arabia from January – May 2007.

Among the fatalities are Filipinos, wherein according to the data of the Philippine embassy, the road accident is the second cause of death among Filipinos.

Just last week, I witness a car accident 30 meters away from our office. From the ringroad of the main street in Riyadh, a car fell down from the intersection bridge 15 meters above and the car was totally wrecked. Fortunately, no other car was hit down the road.

We have seen how the police tried to bring out the 2 passengers from the crammed car that took them almost an hour to take out the fatalities. There were kibitzers causing the traffic to build up from all directions, but nobody dared to give assistance.

It is the rule in Saudi Arabia that only paramedics are allowed to assist, and if you attempt to help, you might end up in jail. Although the nearest hospital is just 50 meters away, no ambulance nor first aid was given. We have seen how they pulled the body from the car and right on the street, even without giving first aid or paramedics in the area, they cover the body and declared as dead on the spot. When the paramedics arrived, the other casualty was not brought immediately to the nearest hospital, but was taken in a shaded area and given a temporary first aid.

When I saw what they did, I couldn’t imagine how sluggish the authorities in Riyadh to respond immediately.

For Filipinos, no mater how careful they are on the road, accidents are expected to happen anytime because of the carelessness of Saudis on the road. Worst, even if you are not causing the accident, you will end up in the loosing end – death or in the custody by the authority, perhaps for questioning or in jail.

Just like what happened to Soriano’s couple few months ago. Dr. Espie, as she was known for, was a very kind doctor in Al Rajhi Clinic. She had helped many Filipinos, including me, for medical treatment. Unlike the most numbered Egyptian doctors in Riyadh who will attend to you dismissively, Dr Espie assured the patients that they will get proper medications and therapy.

I remember when I consulted her in Olaya Clinic and asked to prescribe
me vitamins, she unabashly gave me “Centrum”, although our company does not permit anyone to take vitamins. And when I seek advice from her regarding my on-and-off colds, she made sure that I undergo x-ray before issuing medicine.

Later I learned that aside from being a good medical practitioner, she and her husband were also involved in community service, especially with the distressed and stranded OFWs.

Accidents had no warning, but sometimes premonition occurs. In our attempt to stay away from them, we are bound to accept the fact that sometimes it happens because we are being faced by circumstances that other people become so careless and innocent people turn into victims.

The common dogma of many Arabs is that “If its Allah’s will that someone dies by this way , so be it”… Our Company president is a true believer of Islam…That’s why our office and villa accommodation have no fire exit, no provision in case of disaster and do not care so much for our safety, except for the iniquitous medical benefits that the government obliged them to do…Higher officers deserves higher benefits… lower rank employees should be satisfied with just “Panadol” and “Flutab”!

Paint My Love

Marami akong nakilala sa Manila. Halos ilang pahina din ang mga pangalan na naisulat ko sa aking directory. Minsan nga hindi ko na maalala pag binabalikan ko ang mga pangalan nila isa-isa. Andyan yong manood ako ng sine sa Alimall, mag-jogging sa umaga, etc. kasi katabi lang ng Alimall ang room na inuupahan ko. Alam ko kung saang sulok sa Alimall ginagawa. Kilala ko na rin at nabarkada halos lahat ng Bakal Boys sa Cubao, pero talagang kaibigan lang. Di ko sila pinapatos. Basta masaya kaming nag kukuwentuhan about their excapades.. mga katarantaduhan, atbp. Kaya naman kampante ako na gumala sa Alimall anytime kasi kilala ko sila.

That time, medyo payat pa ako, so I decided to work out sa Gym. Dito ko nakilala si Edwin, isang pintor. He lives at the back of Alimall. Nagkaroon kami ng relasyon at nag sama. He’s ten years older than me. He treated me nicely. Although alam sa kanila (his father is in military), pinakilala ako as his special someone. Naging close kami ng family niya. Tanggap ako ng mommy niya, but I doubt his father. Kasi parang sampal sa kanya to have a gay son. Pero in fairness, wala namang pinakitang masama sa akin ang father niya. Pag maligaya daw si Edwin, maligaya na rin siya.

Tumagal kami ng 2 taon and we live together…. Palipat-lipat…..Sa Basa Compound sa Libis before… (now Eastwood Libis)…. Sa New York Street sa Cubao…..Pero sadya atang promiscuous tayo, there was a time na I fell out of love sa kanya. Hinayaan niya ko to mingle with my friends sa mga outings, gimikan, etc. By the way, homebody lang siya kasi hilig niya talagang magpinta. Doon ako nagkaroon ng ibang contact with others. Naging unfaithful ako sa kanya. The worse, I decided to live with my hometown friend, Boyet, in Mandaluyong. Boyet is my classmate in college. Guwapo siya, bi at lakas ng appeal, pero wala kaming attraction sa isa’t isa. Doon ako unti-unting na fall-out of love kay Edwin. We ended our relationship casually. He let me free kung saan daw ako masaya….

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The Library Foundation

Madalas kaming gumimik ng mga new friends ko sa Malate. Halos pag uwi naming, palagi kaming may take-out. Kung hindi sa Malate, sa QMC o sa UST. That time lahat sa akin parang fling lang. I want to enjoy being single…

We were invited to a seminar about MHM (Men having Sex with Men) – ito yong term noon sa Malate. We don’t want to be called gay, AC/DC, bading o kahit anong lingo. Doon naming ginawa sa Laguna. Naging close ako sa batch naming – Si Bong, Marlon, Danny and Mike. Doon nagsimulang mag-enjoy ako. Gimik dito… Gimik doon. Sa tagal naming naging close sa isat-isa, na we decided to rent a big apartment para walang hassle pag may take-home.

Halos walang humpay ang pag-gagala namin. Sa sinehan…. Disco…sing-along bar…. Sa intramuros… mga gaybars, at kung saan pa.

Talagang nag-eenjoy ako sa dami kong nakilala, katulad nina:


Bert – isang Ex-Saudi gym instructor. We both attracted dahil sa pareho kaming mahilig sa work-out. After he arrived fromSaudi, ako ang una niyang nakilala sa sinehan. He proposed to me at laking gulat ko ng dalhin niya ako sa kanila sa Cavite at pinakilala sa pamilya niya. Alm ng pamilya niya na ganoon siya, kaya okey lang sa amin. Kaso talagang maraming tukso. Although magaling siya sa kama, hindi tumagal an gaming relationship.

Anthony – nakilala ko siya sa QMC one time na pumunta kami doon. Actually, lumayas siya sa kanila. Mabait naman siya. Me itsura, malambing and the biggest dick I ever seen. Andoon yong ipag luto niya ako, ipinaglalaba… bilang ganti daw sa pag kupkop ko sa kanya. Okey na sana sa amin, kaso biglang sinundo siya ng kanyang mother at pinabalik sa kanila. Simula noon, wala na akong contact sa kanya.

Glen (actually limot ko na ang real name niya) – isa siyang waiter sa sing-along bar doon sa Men at Work. Actually si Bong ang may crush sa kanya, but I did the first move kaya napunta siya sa akin. All the while okey na kami.

By the way, Bong, my friend, worked as an agent sa construction materials. Sarili niya ang oras niya. Ako naman sa Makati 8-5.

Natira sa amin si Glen. Dahil nga sa gabi siya, sa umaga siya ang bantay sa bahay. Hindi ko pala alam na may nangyayari na sa kanila ni Bong. Nalaman ko na lang when Danny told me. Nagalit ako sa kanila, but I don’t want to loose our friendship dahil lang sa lalaki. This time, I let them go.


Rhey – kamukha siya ni Romnick..i met him sa SM City Cinema. Nanood kami ng last full show ng friends ko..alam niyo na ang milagrong nagaganap sa sinehan pag ganoong oras. Dahil nga sa hindi ako mapakali sa nakikita kong kakaibang eksena ng mga friends ko sa loob, I decided to stand doon sa likod para mapanood ko within my reach kung saang parte ng sinehan ang basta na lang may lulubog-lilitaw na ulo. Tuwang-tuwa ako pag nakikita ko na pagluminous ang paligid, with the aid of the light coming from the screen, dalawa ang nakikita kung ulong magkatabi na nakaupo and then pag biglang dumilim, biglang nawawala ang isa.

Sa ganoon sitwasyon aliw na aliw ako lalo na pag nakikilala ko na mga friends ko pala yon. Kung sabagay, misan pag tipo ko, eh ginagawa ko din kaso afraid minsan ang mga guys na tinatabihan ko… di daw ako mukhang humahada kasi sa built ng katawan ko. Kaya kung minsan gusto ko na lang tumayo sa likod at panoorin sila.

Dito ko nakita si Rhey. Dahil sa reflection ng ilaw sa screen…shitttt!!! Ang gwapo niya..artistahin ang dating. However, mukha siyang haggard at parang puyat. Pero cute pa rin siya… Mukhang umandar na naman ang pagiging naughty ko…. Sabi ko, pwede tong i-take home….So I took the first move…. Tumabi ako sa kanya and say Hi….. Tumingin lang siya tapos biglang umalis…. Ha.ha..ha.. nabigla siguro sa ginawa ko.. Well, I’m sure di niya ako type so I don’t insist na sundan niya. Besides, its his lost…not mine! Marami naman kasing umaaligid, eh.

Hanggang matapos ang palabas, di ko na siya nakita…. Umuwi kami ng friends ko… nagbalitaan kung anong nangyari. “For sure, sinayang mo na naman ang gabi mo, friend. Wala ka na namang score!!” sabi nila sakin. Sinabi ko sa kanila about this guy that I attempt to make friends, pero sabi ko mailap eh….

Ang lakas ng ulan noon sa labas kaya nag antay kami ng taxi sa likod ng SM. Laking gulat ko nang makita ko si Rhey nagaabang din ng taxi. Ngumiti siya sa akin, narinig atang pinag usapan namin siya. I smiled back at that was the right time I approached him… Mabait naman pala siya, friendly. Pinakilala ko siya sa friends ko. Actually, pauwi daw siya ng Pangasinan kaso ang lakas ng ulan. I offer a place sa amin. Medyo nahiya siya pero sa sulsol ng mga kaibigan ko, pumayag na rin siya. Rhey said sorry to me dahil doon sa pang iisnab niya sa akin. Traumatic daw kasi sa kanya dahil minsan nanood siya ng sine, may tumabi sa kanya at may di siya nagustuhang ginawa noong bakla. Pinagbigyan daw niya yong tumabi sa kanya, yon pala kasabwat ng guardiya at hinuli siya. Buti na lang daw, may pera siya kaya na-areglo niya kaagad. Simula daw noon, pag nanonood siya ng sine, eh nakatayo na lang daw siya sa likod.

Sa bahay, medyo inaasikaso ko ng husto si Rhey. Pinapaligo, binigyan ng maisusuot pantulog. Malaki yong kama ko kaya tabi kami. Doon ko nakita ang hubog at kinis ng kanyang katawan. Bago kami matulog, naikuwento niya sa akin na mayroong ka relasyong bading ang kanyang pinsan. Ipinagpalit daw ng kanyang pinsan ang siyota ng babae sa bading at talaga nga naman daw na masayang-masaya ang kanyang pinsan dahil sa kakaibang treatment ng bading sa kanya, kaya wala naman daw problema if he will try. Medyo nagulat ako doon kaya sabi ko, willing din naman ako to get involve dahil wala naman akong commitment.

May nangyari sa amin noong gabi na yon.Halata ko na hindi siya sanay for a man-to-man sex and I believe his stories na second time pa lang daw niyang ginawa yon. Kinabukasan, hinatid ko siya sa terminal ng bus at nangako na pagbalik niya, papasyalan niya ako madalas. Sa loob ng 2 linggong namalagi siya sa Pangasinan, panay ang text at tawag niya sa kin. Kumustahan…. Hanggang sa aminin niya na kung magkakarelasyon lang naman daw siya, ako na yon…

RHEY FEELS DISAPPOINTED.

At that time, going strong ang relation namin ni Rhey kahit di siya masyadong lumuluwas ng Manila… Pero biglang dumating si Allan sa buhay ko.. ( see my previous posting)

Hindi ko sinabi kay Rhey ang tunkol kay Allan…..Noong lumuwas ng Manila si Allan, nadatnan siya ni Rhey na nakahiga sa kama ko… at yon ang kanyang kinasama ng loob niya. Lalo na nang malaman niya ang lahat ng nangyari sa amin ni Allan. Rhey confronted me at nagalit siya. Hindi pa bad aw sapat siya sa akin. Umalis siya at simula noon di na kami nagkita.

My determination to deny the existence of a problem allows an awkward situation to drag on. I keep hoping it will improve- or just prove irrelevant. Face facts, reach a decision and then choose a new route.

Childhood Experience

Relationships are never entirely easy. Even good, solid stable ones have stressful moments. But we survive to the fullest… making us stronger and learn from our own mistakes. We also make sacrifices… We all need to feel needed, we all want to feel wanted, we all love to feel loved… just like any ordinary person.




CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCE

Elementary pa lang ako I know I had a different sexual preference. I belong to a family where modesty and God-fearing subsist. We give too much respect sa parents namin (until now). Kaya yong life ko in a closet, medyo limitado.

I grew up to be discreet and my family didn’t know I had different sexual preference. I had inferiority that time. Ayokong maglaro ng basketbol coz im afraid they might think differently sa akin. I don’t want to be involved in any fight kasi ayokong masaktan. Limited yong mga sports ko, so I grew up not that athletic type…

Kapitbahay namin si Iggy (BTW, I was Grade 5 and he was 18 then). Katamtaman ang kulay niya, but he is the mestizo-type. Matipuno at talagang maraming nagkakagustong dalaga. Actually typical ang place namin sa probinsya…. malayo sa city. His family had a business ( pagawaan ng mga home furnishing gawa sa coconut string). Siya ang namamahala. Sa tabi lang ng bahay naming ang factory, so madalas ako doon.

Hindi ko na maalala kong paano nag umpisa. Basta niyaya niya ako lagi para samahan siya at tulungan sa negosyo after my school. Halos araw-araw naming ginagawa iyon at walang nakakaalam. Alaga niya ako, at ganoon din ako sa kanya. Pag mas sobrang ulam na luto si mama, patago kong binibigyan si Iggy.

Takot ang iba sa kanya dahil talagang naghahamon sa kalsada ng away if he got drunk. Maybe because iniintriga kasi ang family niya dahil madalas masangkot sa mga may asawa ang mga kapatid niya. Kaya doon lang niya nailalabas ang sama ng loob.. sa paglalasing…. Actually head siya ng isang gangster noon (sigue-sigue atang pagkakaalam ko!).

Even his family, hindi siya maawat at mapagsabihan…Nobody dares to stop him from being a troublemaker. Pero di ko maintindihan na sa isang pakiusap ko sa kanya pag nangugulo siya, nakikinig naman siya.

Di ko alam, pero sa edad ko, I was 10 then, he listened to me…..at lahat ng problema niya na di niya masabi sa kanyang family, ako lang atang sinasabihan.

Hindi ko rin alam kong bakit at my age, halos pinagkakatiwalaan niya ako. Kaya everytime na maglalasing siya, akoang una niyang hinahanap… at humahantong madalas sa pagpapaligaya ko sa kanya… Sa akin lang daw siya nagiging at ease.

At may age, i can’t figure out kung bakit ganoon siya. Is he also gay?


But I was wrong…. Minsan may nagustuhan siyang babae, si Lili. Actually, kapitbahay din namin siya. Nagpatulong siya sa akin.. Naging tulay nila ako. Pag gabi, kailangan nilang magkita, ako ang gumagawa ng paraan para ipaalam kay Lili. Akong taga bantay nila sa madilim na sulok, kesehodang lamukin ako ng husto. Tumagal kami ng ganoon.. Kung minsan bilang pasasalamat niya sa akin, binibigyan niya ako ng regalo aside from sex na ginagawa naming after silang mag usap… Pag masaya siya, he see to it na sa akin niya unang pinapadama. Palagi akong may bonus sa kanya.he.he.he. Tumagal yon until I reach high school. Walang iba sa buhay ko kundi siya. Masaya ako pag kasama siya kasi aside from my loving family, sa kanya ko naranasan ang sobrang pagmamahal.

Before I graduated sinabi niya sa akin na magpapakasal na sila ni Lili. Nagpaalam siya sa akin. Umiyak ako sa saya not because ayaw ko siyang mawala o mahinto ang aming relationship. Sabi ko, its time for him to settle kasi 23 na siya. Pero he promised me na andiyan pa rin siya at tuloy pa rin kaming dalawa. Ako ang naging abay nila sa kasal. Pero the night before his wedding, yon ang pinaka matindi at intimate naming sex. (Alam niyo na kung ano yon!)

When I started my college (sa province pa rin), Madalng na kaming nag se-sex. Pag may problema lang siya kay Lili, sa akin siya pumupunta at nagpapalipas ng oras at ligaya. Meron din akong fling-fling pero hanggang one night stand lang. Takot kasi ako na ma-involve baka mapabayaan ko ang studies ko.

At last nakatapos ako ng college, but months before my graduation, I met this young professor ng other school. His name is Fred. May nangyari sa amin, at sa laking gulat ko na lang, ayaw niya akong pakawalan. Masyado atang na-obsessed sa akin. I already decided to work in Manila after graduation pero binantaan niya ako na may mangyayari sa kanya once na iwanan ko siya. (BTW, siguro that was the time na na involve siya sa isang relationship which I admit napilitan lang ako dahil that time, sa kanya ako umaasa financially). Sabi pa niya kailangan siya lang daw sa buhay ko. Natakot ako at di ko alam ang gagawin ko. Sinabi ko to kay Iggy ang lahat and he was able to help me.

Graduation namin noon, si Fred ang gumastos ng handa ko sa bahay. Really, ayaw niya talaga akong mahiwalay sa kanya kaya todo bantay niya ako. After some merry making, inuman at kuwentuhan, medyo nalasing kaming tatlo. Natulog kaming magkakasama sa kama at hindi ko alam ang balak na gagawin si Iggy. Balak ni Fred na tumabi sa akin, but Iggy insisted na sa akin tumabi. Doon nalaman ni Fred ang lahat. Sinabi sa kanya ni Iggy about our relationship. Akala ko manggugulo si Fred, pero dahil na rin sa pagiging warfereak ni Ignacio, sinabihan siya na kung hindi niya ako titigilan, makakatikim siya ng suntok. Doon natakot si Fred at paggising namin, hinayaan na lang ako ni Fred sa gusto kong mangyari… He let me go!

A moth after graduation, im ready to leave para makipagsapalaran sa Manila. Ignacio helped he a lot. Pero bago ako umalis, I promised him na anytime, pag kailangan niya ko, darating ako… Again, bago ako umalis, he let me feel how important I am sa kanya…